Maryam Nikkhah

God

2012-02-04T08:49:00.001-08:00

If you are right there is I think name god and this is all you wiling then were all in a fight with god.

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Nothing is the same as before

2012-01-28T08:47:00.001-08:00

Not even friendship ,not love, not even time; not life nothing is the same as before. Is it just the human which is transforming to another shape or is it the technology that is taking over of everything?

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What is the best time of the day

2012-01-12T11:54:00.001-08:00

Thinking what time is the best time of day?

When I take dogs for walk or when I drink a hot tea at night?

Or when I lay down on the couch. Problem is I don't know where i am taking my couch next month and walk my dogs!

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Life is like a zumba class

2011-11-28T21:11:00.001-08:00

Yes life is like a zoomba class. You have to know what are you doing you have to know what is all about. If you don't dance then you're lost if you don't look at others and do not imitad your lost. Some people r t know how to dance there is standing and a first row. they can just look at their cell phone in there all the time and enjoy it. They also enjoy them self. some orders are in the middle row just observing to do the right thing. Others are standing at the end and they don't know what they're doing, they don't even see their image in the mirror because of the crowd. If you enjoy the life you enjoy the ride don't know how to write it or if you know how to ride it. What is matter its just enjoy it.

Unfinished

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Bones and roots.

2011-11-17T12:36:00.001-08:00

Don't give it up so easy people. I learned from the tree in my backyard. just trying to pull it out some dirt but it didn't come out I tried many times and I tried but it didn't come off. If plants are growing in the soil it is so hard to just take them out. My little plant told me "I kissed a girl in this pot and pot is on the which was reached the wet soil and soil is surrounded by the cement, there is no way to come out from here because you want to take me with you. I have very very strong roots.

I heard him but I didn't listen to him I told my plant we should live this place together. I will take your roots where ever I go. I promised and I lifted the plant. He finally came out and I bet he was screaming loud. I wanna be that strong plant to find a way to just grow my roots so strong but be flexible to move my heavy body when I have to move.

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Andy Williams - The Impossible Dream

2011-11-12T17:44:00.000-08:00

I feel so blue. I found this memorable songs for myself to fell better. I am sure you will love it.

To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow,
To run where the brave dare not go.

To right the unrightable wrong,
To love pure and chaste from afar,
To try when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star.

This is my quest,
To follow that star --
No matter how hopeless,
No matter how far.

To fight for the right
Without question or pause,
To be willing to march
Into hell for a heavenly cause.

And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will be peaceful and calm
when I'm laid to my rest.

And the world will be better for this,
that one man scorned and covered with scars
still strove with his last ounce of courage.
To reach the unreachable star.

Andy Williams - The Impossible Dream

Fog and morning

2011-10-22T11:18:00.000-07:00

Entering to the fog is like walking up to the pull of silky white fresh and mysteries life. Today I was driving in to the white cloud. Jazz music was playing" If I Loved You by: Julie Andrews" Smoothest of the smoothest. Then I saw two of the motorbike couple who were riding with big smiles and two big black hats which has human skeleton skull on it.Even their hats are enjoying from this ride. Fifteen minutes later still driving in the fog and see a yellow banner holding by two beautiful girls which advertising one day car wash. Life is dripping from their smiles! I wish I could stay and get the car-wash, but I have to be at work. I am still driving and suddenly sun is crossing so sharp through the window and tearing the clouds out. Wow too much beauty in just half an hour. I think I am full for today.

I learned when it was so late.

2011-10-10T12:13:00.001-07:00

I learned that so so late! I did waste my life to be nice kind organized and loyal. At last I found out that I just killed myself. I just shoot myself with poison everyday. I changed many life's & I have to regret for my lost life and there is no turning back!

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scream of fire.

2011-10-07T09:35:00.001-07:00

Not long ago this place was filled with orange trees. today sadly I'm looking at this place the disc burning down. Greens are all dry brown and they are just burning orange . I'm standing here listening to the sound of fire it's so powerful. Fire is so hot. This is end of the beginning. This is the end of the green and start another screen maybe darker maybe lighter. All of the agriculture people they struggle so bad. They are cutting trees and growing another products!
Economy economy economy is bad. Maybe burning treesand it will help the economy.

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Time Machine

2011-09-25T10:07:00.001-07:00

I think time machine was invented many many years ago. we didn't realize when we think and we travel with going back to our memories this is exactly time machine! We are searching in our filing memories then with reminding one or more we get sad or happy, angry or satisfied. planning for our future and see it, even nostalgia is the exact time machine. We feel the sadness and loneliness of our space between now and then. I think those people who never think about their passed or don't plan for future they don't have time machine on their body genetics. That's it.

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2011-09-20T08:34:00.001-07:00

Don't hit the mirror in your friends head. Just show them your reflection.

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MOON

2011-09-17T23:17:00.000-07:00

It is night and kind of dark. Moon is shimmering. I am walking and I see one moonlit reflection on each houses shining glamorously! There is only one moon but every house has one in their window!

شب است و آسمان کمکی سیاه، اما ماه با قامتی نورانی میدرخشد . در آسمان فقط یک ماه پدیدار است اما به هر خانه که نگاه میاندازم در هر پنجره که نگاه میکنم یک ماه میدرخشد

you and me

2011-09-17T15:38:00.001-07:00

What kind of life it is so far away far far from each other. when it's morning for you it is night for me. when I'm waking up your going to bed. then I am dark you are bright. when you're smiling I'm crying when I need your shoulders youre too far. when I'm flying you just crawling. when I want you you don't want me. when you want me I don't want to. It is raining over there it is sunny here. time goes by so fast time is running away from us. I don't even know who you are you don't even know why I miss you so much.

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I wanna show you u.

2011-09-13T08:58:00.001-07:00

You don't see yourself smiling crying laughing screaming cheering.. ya gonna be my next patient. I mean exhibition .Are you ready to be healed.

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I don't even know who I am I

2011-09-10T13:50:00.001-07:00

I am lost. I don't know if I'm a girl or a boy? Am I Iranian or American? Am I kind or I am mean! Do I speak Farsi or I speak English. I'm a journalist or I'm a photographer or I am a TV production or video production person, office manager, or web page designer I don't know. I don't know. I don't wanna finish my master in communication. I don't know what I wanna study for my master. What major make it or bring me money money money money. I hate money but my money is grabbing my neck, twisting my arm. I like to study I like to study more and more but the majors that I like they don't bring me enough money. what should I do? I miss all of my friends which they all around the world. I am getting old and I don't get what I want it. Economy is bad and I have to wait and hold on and be patient but I can't! I'm bored I'm bored I'm bored. I want my momma. I wanna go back to my homeland country. Heee eeeeeerrd he he. I feel like I have to nag nag today can I please let me do it. Please....

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A poem

2011-09-04T12:17:00.001-07:00

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Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time

I feel alive and the world it's turning inside out Yeah!

I'm floating around in ecstasy

So don't stop me now don't stop me

'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time

I'm a shooting star leaping through the skies

Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity

I'm a racing car passing by like Lady Godiva

I'm gonna go go go

There's no stopping me

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic man of you

Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time

I'm having a ball don't stop me now

If you wanna have a good time just give me a call

Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)

Don't stop me now (Yes I'm having a good time)

I don't want to stop at all

I'm a rocket ship on my way to Mars

On a collision course

I am a satellite I'm out of control

I am a sex machine ready to reload

Like an atom bomb about to

Oh oh oh oh oh explode

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic woman out of you

Don't stop me don't stop me don't stop me

Hey hey hey!

Don't stop me don't stop me

Ooh ooh ooh (I like it)

Don't stop me have a good time good time

Don't stop me don't stop me

Ooh ooh Alright

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic woman of you

Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time

I'm having a ball don't stop me now

If you wanna have a good time

Just give me a call

Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)

Don't stop me now (Yes I'm having a good time)

I don't wanna stop at all

A poem

2011-09-04T12:17:00.000-07:00

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Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time

I feel alive and the world it's turning inside out Yeah!

I'm floating around in ecstasy

So don't stop me now don't stop me

'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time

I'm a shooting star leaping through the skies

Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity

I'm a racing car passing by like Lady Godiva

I'm gonna go go go

There's no stopping me

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic man of you

Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time

I'm having a ball don't stop me now

If you wanna have a good time just give me a call

Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)

Don't stop me now (Yes I'm having a good time)

I don't want to stop at all

I'm a rocket ship on my way to Mars

On a collision course

I am a satellite I'm out of control

I am a sex machine ready to reload

Like an atom bomb about to

Oh oh oh oh oh explode

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic woman out of you

Don't stop me don't stop me don't stop me

Hey hey hey!

Don't stop me don't stop me

Ooh ooh ooh (I like it)

Don't stop me have a good time good time

Don't stop me don't stop me

Ooh ooh Alright

I'm burning through the skies Yeah!

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm trav'ling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic woman of you

Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time

I'm having a ball don't stop me now

If you wanna have a good time

Just give me a call

Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)

Don't stop me now (Yes I'm having a good time)

I don't wanna stop at all

help me please.

2011-09-01T10:55:00.001-07:00

Can you please help me to peel off this skin off me. It is tough and harsh for my body. I need somebody to know how they can just peel off skin. I needs to grow I have to grow. This body is too small for this skin. please help me.

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some people

2011-08-31T11:05:00.001-07:00

Some people live underground some others are so earthy then they live on desert. Some others lives up on the air. They love to fly, but there is a string tie in their feet that is just pulling them down every single minute.

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چه اتفاقاتی میتوانست بیافتد تا من تولد سی و نه سالگیم را نبینم

2011-08-27T16:13:00.000-07:00

دوباره زمین چرخید وچرخید وبه زادروز متولد شدن من رسید. روزهای تولدم در دوران کودکی به جز خوشحالی و شادمانی از داشتن یک کیک رنگین ویا هدیه های تولد و بازی با دوستانم مفهومی دیگر نداشت و همه اتفاقات بد و وحشتناک دیگر دنیا برای من وجود خارجی نداشت. اون روزها ناراحتیها و دلواپسیهای من منتهی میشد به تمام شدن زودگذر جشن تولدم ویا غصه دار بودم از این که دختر خاله عزیزم و بهترین همبازی کودکیهایم چرا باید برود خانه خودشان ومن دوباره تنها بشوم و با اسباب بازیهایی که تنهایی بازی باآنها لذتی نداشت بازی بکنم. عجب دغدغه هایی داشتم و تصور میکردم که همه مشکلاتم با کمک مادر و پدرمیتواند حل شود

امسال مثل اینکه دارم جف پا دارم میپرم توی ۳۹ سالگی و تصوراتم در مورد روز تولد به نحوی غریبانه ای تغییر کرده. بعد سن سی سالگی هر سال عصبانی بودم که دارم پیرتر میشوم. اما امسال کاملا افکاری حدید در مخچه کوچک بنده متظاهر شده.افکاری کاملا متفاوت با نگاهی تقریبا خوشبینانه نسبت به دنیا.
فکر میکنم من خیلی خوشبختر و خوش شانستر بودم از انسانهای که میشناختم یا نمشناختم . منظورم انسانهایی است که الان آن طرف آسمان آبی پرواز میکنند و دیگر این خاک آلوده را با ما تقسیم نمیکنند .احتمال این که من هم یکی از آنها بودم خیلی دور از واقعییت نبوده.میخواهم چند نمونه و دلیل که ممکن بود احتمالات تلف شدن زود رس مرا رقم بزند به ترتیب مینویسم

مثلا: در همان سالی که من بدنیا آمدم فضا پیمای آپولو پنج یا هشت به زمین نشست. اگر دانشمندان در تخمین فرود اشتباه کرده بودند احتمال اینکه بر روی سقف خانه ما فرود بیایید خیلی قوی بود. احتمال کشته شدن من وخانواده ام بیشتر چراکه این فضا پیما دویست و پنجاه کیلو از خاک ماه را غیر قانونی با خودش به زمین آورده بود

اگر خانواده من در بنگلداش زندگی میکردند احتمال داشت در طغیان آب و سیلاب سال ۱۹۷۴ کشته شویم. اما ما آنجا نبودیم و زنده ماندیم

دقیقا زمانی که من هشت ساله بودم یک آتش سوزی بزرگ در کازینو ام جی ام لاس وگاس رخ داده. اگر من اون انجا بودم چی؟ یک دختر هشت ساله معلوم نبود چه اتفاقی برایم می افتاد شاید زیر دست و پا آتش نشانهای ناشی خفه میشدم

در سال ۱۹۸۹ اگر من و پدرم به مسابقه فوتبال در انگلیس رفته بودیم ممکن بود جزو اون نودو پنج نفر آدم زیر دست و پا له بشیم و بریم تو تاریخ فوتبال . خوشهالم که پدرم هیچ موقع برای تماشای فوتبال به استدیوم نمیرفت و من را هم با خودش نمیبرد

و اما این یکی اتفاق که خیلی خیلی خیر از بالای سرم رد شده. از ترکیه که برگشتیم و هنوز عکسهامون هم چاپ نکرده بودیم شنیدیم زلزله ۷.۱ ریشتری کلی آدمها و هتلها و... را باخاک یکسان کرده. حالا که فکر میکنم عجب روزگار غریبی است و عمر ما به دنیا بوده ها

در سال ۲۰۰۲ فیلم گنگهای نیویورک به سینما آمد و من آن را خیلی دقیق تماشا کردم. فیلم مرا بسیار تحت تاثیر خود قرار داد. امروز که فکر میکنم میبینم برای چی اون روز خیلی دگرگون شده بودم. اگر من در اون سالها به آمریکا مهاجرت کرده بودم حتما قربانی گنگ وگنگ بازی شده بودم

خلاصه زندگی من سراسر شانس بوده و بس وفقط با شادی و خوشهالی در کشوری به نام ایران بزرگ شدم . زندگی من سراسر اتفاقات خنده دار بوده. مثلا زمانی که من شش ساله بودم مدرسه ما را برای شش ماه تعطیل کردند تا یک کارهای خوبی انجام بدهند که ایرانی ها در شادی و شادمانی و ثروت غوطه ور بشن. چقدر خوش میگذشت شبها وقتی کارکران اداره برق اعتصاب کرده بودند و هیچ کس برق نداشت من و بابا و مامان توی خانه زیر نور چراغ گازی تخته بازی میکردیم و ریاضی میخوندیم. گاهی هم صداهای شعارها مثل لالایی میآمد و ما بهشون میخندیدیم

بعدها اتفاقات جالبتر و هیجان انگیزتری رخ داد. ایران و عراق شروع کردن اسلحه های اضافیشون را به هم دیگه پاس دادن تا از دست این همه آهن اضافی خلاص بشن و باز هم به ما کلی خوش گذشت. مخصوصا وقتی که هواپیماهای عراقی بالای شهرمان مانور میدادن میرفتیم توی پناهگاه و هی غشغش میخندیدیم. باور کنین اگر دروغ بگم

یک مرتبه هم توی راه مدرسه با یک ماشین پیکان قرمز قشنگ تصادف کردم چون آقاهه بیچاره حواسش پرت شده بود و آمده بود توی پیاده رو. خیلی آقای مهربانی بود از توی ماشینش به من نگاه کرد و وقتی دید من حالم خوبه زودی گاز ماشینشو گرفت و رفت که حتما سر کارش دیر نرسه

الان که فکرش را میکنم تازه متوجه میشم چقدر خوش شانس بودم که تا حالا زنده ماندم و دلیلش هم اینکه من کشوری که به دنیا آمدم جای درست زمان درست بوده پس شادمان هستم که سی و نه ساله شدم چون من یک ایرانی خوشبخت هستم مثل همه ایرانی های مثبت و خوشبین و خوشبخت دیگه. ما همه خوش شانس بودیم مگه نه

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What could happen in 39 years

Earth was circled and circled again and arrived to the point that I can say it is my day. Aha.. My birthday,,,,, When I was a kid on my birthday days I had so much fun and blasted. Because of the cake and birthday gifts + my parents guests and party everything was so great. No worries and if there were anything to be upset if was a short day for me to spend with my best cousin and play with our toys. I was getting mad when my favorite cousin had to go home and I didn't feel playing with my animals and cars alone. But years passes by and I grow up so fast. Problems grows with my age. I can not solve anything like before. When I was a kid with complaining to my mom or dad everything was solved right away. He he not anymore. This year I have a different feeling about my birthday. Instead of nag nagging I am thinking how lucky I am to be alive for 39 years. I am describing here that what could happen to me in 39 years.

In 1971 Apollo XVII, the last manned moon could land accidently to our home and kill all of us instead of landing back to Earth, because it was carrying 250 pounds of lunar samples.

Or if my parents would live in Bangladesh we could have been killed in Monsoon floods in 1974.

When I was eight a big fire happened in MGM grand Hotel in Vegas 89 people were killed! If I was there I could be killed by a fire fighters hammer or none trained firefighter!

In 1989 me and my dad could be killed in Sheffield England Stadium among other 95 people who were crushed in the soccer game. I am so happy that my dad never went to the soccer game stadium.

This one I think is the closest one. Right after we came back from Turkey we heard that 7.1 earthquake killed lots of people. OH! We didn't even developed our picture. Oh what a lucky honey moon trip we had.

In 2002 Gangs of New York came to theater. I watched that movie and I was amazed of story and plays. But until today I never thought that how lucky I am that I didn't born in that era! WOFFF. If I moved to United State at that time, I would have been killed definitely and I wouldn't be 39 today.

I am thinking and I see myself as a lucky woman. I survived all of these accident that could happen to me and I had so much fun in my life living in an era of revolution and 8 years of war which was more fantastic and glamorous. I remember how much fun I had when Iranian wants to create a green peaceful with full-democracy atmosphere to breath. I was playing cards and cheese with mom and my dad every-night during revolution nights when we didn't had power because of the workers strike. We were listening to the chanting of people who wants to have the freedom and we were practicing math with my parents. My school was shutdown for six months due to the transaction of changing power. More fun was ahead of us. We had so much fun-time in the war between Iran and Iraq. Oh yeh airplanes were come in the sky and were booming our cities. We were all just laughing and celebrating the fire works above us. I have lots of good memories to tell. Once I was going to school and one beautiful red car hit me on the cross walk. He He it was so funny. Poor driver he was in rush, first he looked at me and he realized that I was ok he went fast back to the street because he was late. Any way I think I have been a lucky person to make this far because I was born in a right time right place and I wasn't in a wrong places in the wrong time. I had so much great time and I don't have anything to complain. Heeee I am 39

2011-08-24T18:41:00.001-07:00

I wish I could come home in the evening like my childhood days from school.
Every day mom made me and my sister two nice yummy dishes full of fruit and we were watching cartoons. No worries nothing. Live was full of simple happiness and silly problems. How can I come back to the history? how?

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Blue blood

2011-08-16T08:42:00.001-07:00

Somewhere in your eyes I see a rainbow dripping from the blue sky.
My heart is taking apart.
My heart tearing apart .
Dripping blue bloods.
I'm going back to the history searching for you.
I am looking up & I see you in the mirror.
You are there I am here; but far from the rainbow.
Is it impossible to reach it at this point?
I'll give it another try.

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کلید lock

2011-08-10T12:15:00.002-07:00

قفلی که کلیدش گم شده باید دور انداخت

Threw away the lock which doesn't have the key

Annabel Lee

2011-08-01T19:43:00.000-07:00

Years a go we received a letter from one of our dear friends, Dr Soraya. He wrote us this beautiful poem of "Edgar Allan Poe". My sister which was the master of English translated the poem for us,it was so beautiful,soft and adore. But when she was reading it in English it was much, much sounds better. I am sure if you never heard of this master work of Allan Poe you will love to read it over and over again. I was searching for something else but I found "Annabel Lee" by accident.

Thanks for memories and thanks for the great poem.

Annabel Lee

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea:
But we loved with a love that was more than love -
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her high-born kinsmen came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me -
Yes! that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud one night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we -
Of many far wiser than we -
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling -my darling -my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea -
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

by Edgar Allan Poe

2011-07-29T14:15:00.001-07:00

I like the quality not the quantity

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غّر نامه ..... دستگاه آدم شناسی

2011-07-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

ای کاش یک مرکزی دانشگاهی یا فردی بودجه ای برای ساختن یک دستگاه آدم شناسی اختصاص می داد تا این وسیله ساخته میشد. احتمالا هر مرکزی که از این دستگاه ها تولید بکند از بیل گیت هم بیشتر در تاریخ اختراعات معروفتر و ثروتمند تر خواهد شد
سی و هشت سال از عمر زمین با وجود بی وجود من گذشته و از خیابان خاطراتم که میگذرم سرم آتش میگیرد. آرزوی من در آستانه تولدم این است که این دستگاه با تمام تواناییهای خاص اختراع شود تا شاید روبرو و چشم در چشم بشینم با تک تک تمام کسانی که در زندگی مستقیم و یا غیر مستقیم به من ضربه زدند و دست و پا ی مرا شکستندد و چشمهایم را در آوردند و گلویم را فشردند که نفس ام تمام شود. آرزو دارم دستگاه آدم شناسی را متصل کنم به با تمام کسانی که ادای مهربانان و دلسوزان را دراوردند و دستشان را بر روی شانه ام گذاشتندند و با دست دیگر قلبم را از سینه بیرون کشیدند. آرزو دارم آنها بشنوند که چگونه مرا تکه تکه کردند و جویدند. همانهایی که تصور دارند که صورتشان رنگ آسمان آبی است و دهانشان پر از گلهای بهاری.
ای کاش کسی این وسیله را میساخت

آرزو دارم به تاریخ باز گردم و به آن آموزگاری که مرا برای شیطنت های کودکانه ام تنبیه کرد نشان دهم که چقدر وجود خود او همانا خود شیطان بود. آرزو دارم که به سالهای جوانی باز گردم و صورت برافروخته آن مهربان فرد بزرگ فامیل را به دیوار بچسبانم و آن دستگاه انسان شناسی را به پشت نخاعش وصل کنم تا تیر بکشد هر انچه در هیکل ناتمیزش غوطه ور است. میخواهم دستگاه بابت تمام کج گویی هایش که بر زیبایی و شوقزدگی جوانی من روان داشت فریاد بکشد. میخواهم به او یاداوری شود که فرزندش نابه کارانه و نابابترانه بود چرا که اینچنین پرورش داده شده بود حسودی و خودخواهی و تنبلی را از تو آموخته بود .چرا برای دل خوشی وجود خودت مرا سوزاندی و در هر مجلس و مهملی اسم مرا در دهانت غل غل کردی تا سوزش روح خودت تسکین یابد. برای تو عزیزی مینویسم که همیشه با وجود حرفها و متلکهای بنفش تو باز هم دوستت داشتم و دختر تو عزیزترین دوست من بود. تو مهربان مریض بودی و مریضیت همانند انگل گوشت خوار به اما و احشائ تمام فامیل نفوذ کرد و همه را آزردی اما همه به تو احترام روا داشتند و دوستت داشتندد. دلت نشکند میخواهم به تو بگویم که تو تنها نبودی. اعضای دیگر فامیل هم همانند تو و همانند همان کرمهای انگل در گوشت و پوست و خون همدیگر فرو رفتند و آلودگی روح تیره رنگشان را به یکدیگر منتقل کردند. تو تنها نبودی. اگر من روزی دستگاه انسان شناسی را داشته باشم به تک تک افراد فامیل که باورشان دوستی بود اما دلشان مالامال از کمبودهای شخصیتیشان نشان خواهم داد که قاتلان جامعه کوچک فامیل همان آنها بودند

عزیزان نزدیکتر از مژه دلشکسته نشوید که این فقط شما نبودید که حتی آدمهای بدون صورت در کوچه و بازار و دوستان همبازی ام در مدرسه هم مرا از تیرهای خاردار و برنده محبت خود بیدریغ نگذاشتند. همان مهربانیهای خشن و گاه فلج کننده را هم با مهارتهای خاصی بر میانه شخصیت و موجدیت من فرود آوردند یکی پس از دیگری و هر کدام با من دلداری و همدردی کردند برای مرحم زخمهایی که دیگری بر پیکرم وارد کرده بودند. اما زخمهای تازه بر پیکرم نشاندند تا خودشان خوشحال باشند

آرزو دارم دستگاه آدم شناسی اختراع شود تاآن را متصل کنم به خانم روانشناس بسیار محترم و بسیار معروفی که مرا به روش خودش تنبیه کرد تا ادب شوم. خانم دکتر زمانی که تو از من استفاده کرده تا از اسرار فرد دیگر مطلع بشوی و استفاده کنی و در اخر مرا با رودربایستی با خودم درگیر کردی تا به هیچ تفکر نکنم و تو با دسنتهای آلوده همچون مگس که از روی مدفوع به اجبار و غم بلند میشود بلند شدی تا طعمعه دیگری بیابی و خود را مشغول نگاهداری یادت میاید. ای وای به دانشگاهی که به تو و دکتران همانند تو مدرک دکترای روانشناسی اعطا کردند

آرزو دارم که روزی بییاید که با ماشین انسان شناسی بتوانم بشنوم چرایی رفتار زنی بنام مادر... مادر همکاری که سایه به سایه دخترش در خیابان ها می امد تا بداند که فرزندش کجا میرود و با که نشست و بر خواست دارد مبادا که فاسد نشود و هرز نرود.
این مادر از فرط عشق به دخترش حتی حاظر شد که هر مانعی که بر سر راه دخترش باشد نابود کند حتی اگر رقییب عشقی دختر رویا پردازش یک انسان باشد. چرا که خداوند بهشت را زیر پای مادران بنا نهاده و مادران انسانی همچون مادر خرس شکار میکنند و میدرند تا فرزندشان سیر شود. دخترک بسیار جوان عاشق شد به مردی که به من عاشق شد و من از همه جا بی خبر کورمال کورمال در دنیای کار و خلاقیت حتی یادم به عاشقی نبود. آن سال من نمیدانستم که میتواتنم عاشق شوم و حتی نمیدانستم که مادر به خانه معشوق خیالی دخترش و همسر مرد به عنوان شخصی ناشناس هشدار میدهد که من مانع عشق همسرش به او میباشم. بیچاره من که نه میدانستم که مرد عاشقش ام بوده و دم بر نیاورده. سالها بعد راز او بر ملا شد که بسیار دیر بود. همکارم یعنی همان دختری رویایی و مادر بسیار مهربان دستان خود را به دروغهای بزرگ آلوده میکنند و آتشی خانمان سوز در خانه مرد روشن میکنند. همسر مرد همچون ببر زخمی دست به چاقو میشود تا عشقش را با فرو کردن آن در دستان پرکار مرد اثبات کند. این جا است که شاید ماشین انسان شناسی آژیر خطرش بلند میشود. اما ادامه داستان به نفع مرد تمام میشود. او شهر کوچک را ترک میکند و به دنیای بزرگتر که به آن تعلق داشته باز میگردد. او با این جا به جایی راههای موفقیت را با سرعت میپیماید و پله ها را چهارتا چهارتا بالا میرود. مادر, دختر عاشقش را غمگین میکند و من باز هم کمرم خم میشود.

اگر روزی دستگاه انسان شناسی ساخته شود آن را همینجا متصل میکنم به درب خانه آنها. آنهایی که فرزندانشان را از روی جهالت به فناکده کشاندند. انقدر سنگ علی شریعتی را به سینه زدند و از محمد و دین دفاع کردند در مقابل دشمنان دین و خدا جنگیدند که چاقویشان از اشتباه گردن خودشان را زد. دخترک بزرگترشان با هزران آرزو هنوز در سن سی و چند سالگی همانند کودکی هشت ساله در جامعه رفت و آمد میکند و سرگردان و حیران از آینده و ترسان با گذشته و افکار مادر و پدرش زندگی میکند.
شاید خواننده های این صفحه باور نکنند آنچه را که میخواهم بنویسم گاهی حتی خود م هم باور نمیکنم.
انسان موجود غریبی است و تفاوتش با حیوانات استفاده احساسی از عقل میباشد اما بیشتر اوقات انسان از ورای آن هم ماورا تر میرود و برای رفع تعفن تن گندیده اش خود ش را به شدت تکان میدهد تا همه جا را هم وزن و هم بوی خود بکند
بازگردم به داستان خانواده گم و گیج نزدیک خانه ما. داستان پیچیده زندگی آنها با مریضی اعصاب و روان فرزند دوم آنها تبدیل به یک کلاف گره خورده شد. روز به روز همه رفتارهای آنها مرموزانه تر شد. آنها تصور میکردند که همانند کبک وقتی سرشان را در برف فرو ببرند هیچ کس آنها را نمیبیند. و اما داستان این خانواده چه ارتباطی با مشکلات من دارد! نمیتوانم . نمیتوانم چگونه مطرح کنم که حداقل خودم حالت تهوع مرا فرا نگیرد.
کوتاه سخن. شاید باور نکنید این خانواده خیلی خیلی خدا دوست برای آرام کردن دردهای بی درمان خود با تهدیدها و داستان سراییهای خراب کننده با تلفنهای ناشناس تلاش میکنند که من و خانواده مرا به نابودی بکشانند. این جا آن جا همه جا دوستان نادوست و اقوام بی قوم مرا تکه تکه میکنند تا خودشان سیراب شوند. شاید دستگاه انسان شناسی همانند آیینه روبروی صورت آدم ها به آنها چهره واقعیشان را نشان دهد تا از کثافتهای وجود خودشان استفراغ کنند. مطمئن هستم این مهربانان از آیینه فرار میکنند یا اگر خود را در آن نگاه میکنند گلستان پر گل در اطراف خود میبینند.

دلم گرفته و داستانهای زیادی از جلوی چشمانم میگذرد. میدانم شما هم از تیرهای مهربانانه دوستان و اقوام در امان نبودید و نخواهید بود و شما هم خواسته و ناخواسته تبدیل به مرده خواری میکنید و زندگی عزیزترین های زندگیتان را یا دوستانتان را تکه تکه میکنید و شما قاتل خواهید بود بدون محکمه
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2011-07-14T08:21:00.001-07:00

Many social networks but I need friends that I can see, laugh and cry on their shoulders.No point to have many unavailable friends on screen

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Confession اعتراف

2011-06-08T18:13:00.000-07:00

من می خواهم اعتراف کنم. باورها و اهداف من در زندگی مورد تجاوز قرار گرفته است. این اتفاق نه یک بار و نه حتی دو بارکه بارها تکرار شده. در دنیا کسانی که به آنها تجاوزمیشود حماییت میشود و حتی شخص متجاوز با اشدد مجازات به زندان میرود و در برابر قانون زانو میزند. اما چگونه میتوانم متجاوزان خودم را به محکمه ببرم؟ به چه عنوان باید از آنها شکایت کنم؟
میدانم که چنین امری غیر ممکن به نظر می آید بنابراین نمیتوانم نقش شاکی را بازی کنم. اما دیگر به هیچ کس اجازه نخواهم داد که به افکارم و هویتم تجاوز کند. نه من دیگر اجازه نخواهم داد که حتی عزیزترینها و نزدیکترینها یا غولهایی با دل موش و حتی شغالان رنگین کمانی دستشان به تار موی افکارم برسد. دیگر نقش کسی که مظلومانه برای پافشاری در شعور و با فرهنگی خود دارد زندگی را بازی نخواهم کرد. تمام کسانی که جنایت کارانه در طول مدت زندگی من با ملایمت یا نامهربانی یا آنانی که تصور داشتند که تحمیل اعقاید آنها برای منافع من است باید آماده این جنگ باشند. چرا که شمشیر سنگین و لختی بر شانه هایم گذاشته ام تا قطعه قطعه کنم هر آن زبان و فکری که بخواهد متجاوز به من باشد.
همیشه تقصیر ما است که اجازه میدهیم که در کوچه تنهایی به ما حمله ور شوند زمانی که با ترس در چشمان
دریده اشان خیره نمیشوی و نشان نمیدهی که میتوانی درنده تر باشی گوشت و پوست تو را دریده اند و تو بیدار میشوی و سر بریده و تن تکه تکه شده آرزوهات را روی خاک سرد میبینی

I want confess here that I my beliefs and has been raped. It didn't happened once, not even twice, It is been many many times. Those are being raped are having organizations and they can get help from doctors or... Also they can sue the person who assaulted them with felony charges but I can not and I will not. I think I won't because I realized that it is always my fault.But I will not let anyone to even get close to my goals or beliefs.

Photographers and writers

2011-06-04T16:16:00.001-07:00

Difference between photographers and writers are defining by simplicity From photographers Photos Writers are defining everything with details. I don't know about writers which are taking pictures also!

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Agri world in a hot day.

2011-05-31T13:07:00.001-07:00

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life is too short for some.

2011-05-21T20:40:00.001-07:00

Rest In Peace Nicholas Joel Haverland

Quality of life is important not the length.
کیفیت زندگی مهم است نه طول آن
If you want know more about him read this article.........

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life is like an apple that falls from tree.

2011-05-19T14:24:00.001-07:00

My mom was telling me that life is like an apple that falls from an apple tree. It is twisting and twisting and you don't know were it will come down. This transaction is super fast like our life.
I am just mad today. I can be real crazy sometimes, right!

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Are women equal with men? Are women equal with men? Are men equal with women or men are more equal? آیا زنان برابر با مردان هستند؟

2011-03-07T14:37:00.004-08:00

همانند جامعه سیاهان آمریکا و داشتن تلوزیون سیاهان (بلک اینترتینمنت) من هنوز معنای روز زن را هضم نمیکنم. به نظر من پیشرفت در شعور انسانی و مساوات از آن جایی میایید که اگر روز زن هست باید روز مرد هم باشد. چرا نیست برای اینکه مساوات برقرار نیست واین روند در مقایسه با تاریخ طولانی جهالت بشری بسیار سریع به نظر میرسد. اما چرا سرعت تغییر افکار جهانی با همان سزعتی که کاربران سلفون یا کامپیوتر در دنیا رشد میکند برابر نیست. چرا انسان که ماشین خلق میکند و انسانی که ماشین را به عنوان ابزار استفاده میکند به همان سرعت در راه پیشرفت اخلاقیش تلاش نمیکند. تا هنگامی که در کشورهای جهان , زنان باور به تساوی نداشته باشند و در این راه قدم نگذارند چگونه میتوان جایگاه زورگویانه مردان را که هزاران سال در ان تکیه داده اند به دو تکه تقسیم کنیم و در کنار آنها بر روی یک صندلی بشینیم و زندگی مساوی و مشابه را روبروی هم داشته باشیم. در جامعه های پیشرفته ای که هنوز روانشناسان آن معتقد هستند رنگ صورتی مورد علاقه دختران و رنگ آبی مورد پسند پسران است و شرکتهای اسباب بازی سازی عروسک را برای دختران وماشین را برای پسران طراحی میکنند زن چه مساواتی میتواند داشته باشد

در ایران فقط 13درصد از زنان ايراني مشغول به كار هستندد اما مقصر کیست؟ مقصر جامعه ای است که به زنان کار نمیدهد یا مردانی که اجازه کار کردن به زنانشان را نمیدهند یا زنانی که به تنبلی عادت کره اند و ترجیحشان این است که بهتر است که این تساوی فقط در بعضی موارد وجود داشته باشد. روند رشد فکری ما(زنان و مردان) بسیار کند پیش میرود و دلایل آن هم بسیار فراوان است که اسباب بازی منتقدان سیاستمداران و فعالان زنان و حافظان حرمت انسانی است. اما تا از خودمان شروع نکنیم این تساوی در حد یک ایده زیبا و قرن بیستمی باقی خواهد ماند

فردا نه امروز

مریم نیکخواه

Are women equal with men? Are men equal with women or men are more equal?

Each country has it own constitutions , history and culture but history has been harsh with women from the beginning. Why this non sense, unequal and unfair life continued so long?

Simple answer in our Iranian school books were repeatedly says that: Because women are emotional, woman's should be mom, produce milk and taking care of babies for 9 months and they are not able to function the same as men all life long.

Now we are living in a 21th century and we have almost one hundred years of fighting for woman's right history. We want to see men and women are equal. How many percentage of these goals were ever reached and what country or what culture achieved more.

Where we are standing now ?

Where should we start?

We can not ignore all of the leaders life achievements and victories for one step ahead toward this awakening. But how close we are and how much more time we should waste? As long as women don't believe it and don't act like a man and do not stand in one shadow or height this fight won't go anywhere.

We are living in a society that sociologists say girls like pink more likely and boys have more attract to blue, but they don't mention that girls for years had to chose pink and they have been told that they should be soft and boys have been encouraged to be harsh and tough.

In most of the developed countries toys for boys are cars or guns and toys for girls are dolls or kitchen tools. How in this society that it is been divided and defined the description of a boy or girls position in a future with branding in their head .... can wish for an equal future?

In Iran only 13% of women are working outside their homes! Why? Is this because their men don't allow them to work outside home or society don't give them this opportunities or it's just women who feel like they don't want to work and they want to be lazy. Are these women prefer to have equality only on some parts(segments) of their life?

Until we have Women 's Day while there is no Men 's Day we are not moving toward equality. It is just like Black American who has Black Entertainment Channel which is showing all of the black movies, black music , black food recipes and black history. As long as we divide us from other group it means that we see each other divided.

If women and men don't believe the meaning of the equality today and don't practice it today; tomorrow won't come and it takes forever to fight for something that women can achieve today.

Why people around the world don't change their views and beliefs with the same speed of technology? Human make and create technology and use it for his and her own benefits. How many cellphones and computer users around the world and how fast they are switching to the new devices or units? Why don't they change their observations and behavior towards equality with the same speed?

Why tomorrow.... do it today.

Maryam Nikkhah March 7/2011

memory

2011-02-06T12:19:00.000-08:00

Watch

Daylight
See the dew on the sunflower
And a rose that is fading
Roses whither away
Like the sunflower
I yearn to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day . . .

Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Every streetlamp
Seems to beat a fatalistic warning
Someone mutters
And the streetlamp gutters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me
You'll understand what happiness is

Look
A new day has begun

سکوت صبح را دوست دارم

2011-01-17T13:30:00.000-08:00

هنگامی که لحظه ای مییابم تا سکوت را مزه کنم آن هنگام است که میدانم هنوز زنده و شادمان هستم. هنوز جانی دارم که طبیعت را بچشم. صدای آواز پرنده ها لحظه تنهاییم را آذین بندی میکند . زبانشان را نمیفهمم اما هر آنچه که میگویند زیبا است و گوشهای من را نوازش میدهند. و امروز برای من روز زیبای دیگری است. همانند این است که از خواب ده ساله بیدار شدم. خستگی نتم از خواب طولانی کوفته است اما دوباره همان مریم خواهم بود. دلم برای دیوانگی هایم تنگ شده بود. چقدر امروز روز زیبایی است

NEW YORK

2010-12-18T20:18:00.000-08:00

I just need one of these boats to run away to the Moon or maybe Mars.

Fall پاییز

2010-10-12T21:08:00.000-07:00

I took this photo on Bellagio, Italy.

I wish I was able to be like a tree to turn my leafs to yellow and orange colors and then drop them to the ground. Then wait for another year to grow green and fresh again.

ای کاش میتوانستم همانند درختان برگهایم را در پاییز به رنگهای زرد و نارنجی عوض میکردم و دوباره در سال جدید برگهای سبز و زیبا بروییانم

باز باران با ترانه

2010-10-04T13:23:00.000-07:00

یکی از زیباترین و دلنشینترین شعرهای که مرا به کودکیم متصل میکند و با خواندنش باران خاطرات گذشته در زمین خشک زندگی دور از ایران هوای روزم را مطبو ع و تازه میکند.امروز را هم با بوی باران آغاز کردیم تا فردا چه شود

به امید پ‍اییز رنگارنگ و بارانی برای همه, مخصو صا تو

باز باران، با ترانه، با گهر های فراوان، می خورد بر بام خانه. من به پشت شیشه تنها، ایستاده، در گذرها،، رودها راه اوفتاده

شاد و خرم، یک دو سه گنجشک پر گو، باز هر دم، می پرند، این سو و آن سو

می خورد بر شیشه و در، مشت و سیلی، آسمان امروز دیگر، نیست نیلی

یادم آرد روز باران: گردش یک روز دیرین؛ خوب و شیرین، توی جنگل های گیلان

کودکی ده ساله بودم، شاد و خرم، نرم و نازک، چست و چابک از پرنده، از خزنده، از چرنده،بود جنگل گرم و زنده

با دو پای کودکانه، می دویدم همچو آهو، پریدم از لب جو، دور میگشتم ز خانه

می کشانیدم به پایین، شاخه های بید مشکی دست من می گشت رنگین، از تمشک سرخ و مشکی

می شندیم از پرنده، داستانهای نهانی، از لب باد وزنده، رازهای زندگانی هر چه می دیدم در آنجا، بود دلکش، بود زیبا؛ شاد بودم، می سرودم گیسوی سیمین مه را، شانه میزد دست باران باد ها، با فوت، خوانا، می نمودندش پریشان. سبزه در زیر درختان، رفته رفته گشت دریا توی این دریای جوشان، جنگل وارونه پیدا. بس دلارا بود جنگل، به، چه زیبا بود جنگل! بس فسانه، بس ترانه، بس ترانه، بس فسانه. بس گوارا بود باران، به، چه زیبا بود باران! می شنیدم اندر این گوهر فشانی، رازهای جاودانی، پند های آسمانی؛ “بشنو از من، کودک من پیش چشم مرد فردا، زندگانی – خواه تیره، خواه روشن - هست زیبا، هست زیبا، هست زیبا

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مجدالدین میرفخرایی = گلچین گیلانی

Maneuver مانور

2010-10-03T13:30:00.000-07:00

A very interesting maneuver by Iran's kind of Police! Men who dressed like women in green!

مانور بسیار جالب توسط نوع ایران از پلیس. مردانی که لباس پوشیدن و مانند زنان در سبز
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مانور توسط نیروهای انتظامی در دفاع از دشمن فرضی.
مردانی با لباس زنانه و سبز دشمن فرضی هستنند.
یادم می اید یک بار در مصاحبه ای که با یکی از کارگردانان
فیلمهای جنگی داشتم میگفت ما کلا دوست داریم
بجنگیم و خون بریزیم و خون ببینیم و زمانی که جنگ نیست باید
فیلم جنگی بسازیم تا عطشمان براورده شود.
البته این گفتار را خارج از مصاحبه شنیدم
چرا که اگر این را جایی مینوشتم هم او هم من امروز شاید اینجا نبودیم.

قصدم ازمطرح کردن این موضوع دقیقا برادران
نیروی انتظامی و یا بسیجی یا به اعبارتی دیگر زنجیر کشان نوین است

این مردان رییس جمهور دربدر دنباله دشمن میگردندد
انها میخواهند قداره بکشند و حالا که نفسها در سینه خفه شده
و دیگر کسی نیست که صدای عربده ی زورگویشان را
با نجابت بشنوند در نتیجه بازی جنگی میکنند تا سیر آب از گلالود زورگویی شوند

سئوال من از خودم این است که تا چه زمان این سکوت ادامه
خواهد یافت ومردم در میانه درگاه خانه با ترس و لرز

به انتهای کوچه نگاه خواهند کرد تا شاید روزی آید که

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swindle فریب

2010-09-28T13:26:00.000-07:00

Everyday I have to debate about right or left, black or white, hat or hair, being angry or calm! What is the difference between swindle myself or let others to deceive me.

من هر روزم را در جنگم . چپ یا راست ، سیاه یا سفید ، با کلاه یا سر عریان ، عصبانی یا آرام! چه تفاوتی میان این ست که من خودم را گول بزنم و یا اجازه ...بدهم دیگران من را فریب بزنند

Don't...

2010-09-21T13:29:00.000-07:00

Never let anybody Vomit on your emotions and beliefs, also be careful Do not burp in front of people's beautiful beliefs and emotions.

Avoid unnecessary attempts at achievements.

When you are in a big hole look for a rope not a hand!

هرگز اجازه ندهید تا بر روی احساساتتان و اعتقادتان استفراغ کنند و شما هم از آروغ زدن جلوی زیباییهای احسساسات دیگران پرهیز فرمایید

از حرکتهای غیرضروری اجتناب کنید.و هنگامی که در یک چاه بزرگ افتاده اید به دنبال طناب بگردید نه یک جفت دست

Do we believe to whatever we say and write to others?

2010-07-17T00:35:00.000-07:00

Everyday I read lots of beautiful poems and passionate words for better life and path which are written by others. I am wondering if they do believe it truly to whatever write or copied from somewhere else 's page or book? Do they really walk to that smooth, friendly, heavenly road? Honestly do we want show ourselves to others as a successful and happy person or in realty are we act like that?

هر روز جملات زیبا و دلنگیز را که توسط برخی از دوستان نوشته میشود میخوانم و احساس خوشایندی بر گونه هایم نقاشی میشود.اما سیوال بزرگی دارم و آن سئوال بی جواب این است که آنان تا چه اندازه به این نوشته ها اعتقاد دارند و تا چه حد به آنها عمل میکنند؟ آیا فقط مینوسیم که از دیگران برتر نوشته باشیم یا هدف جلب توجه با کلمات به سرقت رفته از دیگر نویسندگان است؟

Did Popular Preacher Murder His Wife?

2010-05-17T12:23:00.000-07:00

I was watching 20/20 today, this week story was about Matt Baker a popular preacher who was killed his wife with overdose on drug. For three years this case was suicide but with help of murdered wife's family and private investigators case changed to the murdered. Preacher was plying his role as an innocent dad

for a long time and he was denying everything.

Minister had an affair with another woman and he killed his wife because he loved another woman.

Vanessa Bulls priest's secret lover knew everything from the first minutes of attempting murder until the end it. She reveals all of the story in the court and also he admitted that for three years she knew it all of it.

My question is shouldn't she punish or have at least some type of punishment?

I would love you to watch this program and judge if you can.

Did Popular Preacher Murder His Wife?

Amazing life of hummingbirds.

2010-05-12T20:32:00.000-07:00

Our town is full of hummingbirds all year long and I have a food stand in our backyard for them. Every day they are coming and feeding from the red liquid food that I fell in to the bottle. It is so amazing to watch them fly and sit for a second for feeding their small and beautiful bodies. I looked and I found this amazing video that is made about the hummingbirds life.

شهر ما پر از مرغهای مگس خار است.البته غذای آنها شهد گل است و نمیدانم در زبان فارسی چرا این اسمگذاری برای آنها شده است. در تمام طول سال من شاهد زندگی آنها در حیاط خانه مان هستم و برای آنها غذای مخصوص قرمز رنگی را در شیشه میریزم و با غذا خورن آنها شاهد پرواز زیبا و سریع آنها هستم.این فیلم مستند بسیار زیبا گوشه ای از زندگی این پرنده کوچک را به زیبایی به تصویر میکشد

Click here to watch...............................................................................

اینجا را کلیک کنید

Simin Behbahani

2010-03-25T23:35:00.000-07:00

Simin Behbahani سیمین بهبهانی

Like always I was driving back home and like always I was listening to NPR radio. I heard this program called "On Point" today.

I was so thrilled of the subject and aspects of it, It is humbling how Iranian Artists, Journalists and Poets Influencing foreign medias by their freedom messages.

This program changed my recent strange empathy or sympathy to the point of proud and happiness. Listen to this you will enjoy it.

http://www.onpointradio.org/2010/03/iranian-poet-simin-behbahani

For Women's Day روز جهانی زن

2010-03-08T09:30:00.001-08:00

روز جهانی زن = داستان زنان عادی

برای روز زن:مبارزه زنان به مشارکت در جامعه و هم شانه و برابر با مردان.
تا زمانی که زنان ومردان معنئ این تساوی تساوی را نفهمند هنوز جشنی برای شادمانی نیست. استوار با اراده وبا هدف پیش به سوی آینده ای برابر در عمل و باور تمام انسانهای دنیا نه در کلام و روزهای قراردادی

For Woman's Day: Woman's participation in society and equality with men, shoulder by shoulder. As long as women and men don't understand the meaning of equality in action there is not festive to celebrate!
Equality should practice around the world not just in the words. Aim toward a future for a real practice and belief for all of us.

LENI RIEFENSTAHL

2010-02-10T16:59:00.000-08:00

She was one of the greatest artists of all time. A German film Director.

I was 18 for the first time that I read about Leni. OH I loved her from the moment that I herd her story. She was born in Berlin in 1902. She studied painting and started her artistic career as a dancer.
An injury of the knee put an end to her sensational career. Then, she start play in the movies and she become famous as an actress, a film director, a film producer and a film reporter.
She was awarded for her documentary film "Triumph des Willens" and named after the Reich Party Congress 1934 in Nuremberg. The gold medal in Venice in 1935 and the gold medal at the World Exhibition in Paris in 1937. Also her world-famous film about the Olympic games made the same experience for her and she was awarded for that movie as well.
Riefenstahl heard presidential candidate Adolf Hitler speak at a rally in 1932 and was mesmerized by his talent as a public speaker. After meeting with Hitler she was offered the opportunity to direct Victory of Faith, an hour-long feature film about the fifth Nazi Party rally at Nuremberg in 1933.She produced most of the documentary movies about Hitler and she she was forced to leave the Germany after war because of that. Some of her movie were :
The Blue Light. Triumph of the Will, Festival of Nations

Later she become a photographer and also in her late 90's she went to Africa and shot lots of interesting subjects.

She once survived from a crash in Sudan in 2000 while trying to learn the fates of her Nuba friends during the Sudanese civil war.
She published many books also her biography in 1995. Also she learned how to dive and she made her last documentary when she was 75. In 1978, she published a book of her below-water photographs, Korallengärten (Coral Gardens) followed by the 1990 book; Wunder unter WasserOn August 22, 2002, her 100th birthday, Riefenstahl released a film called Impressionen unter WasserUnderwater Impressions, an idealized documentary of life in the oceans. She was the oldest scuba diver in the world at this time.

Susan Brownell Anthony

2010-01-31T11:36:00.000-08:00

Today I learned about
Susan B. Anthony

American civil rights leader who played a pivotal role in the 19th century women ’s rights movement to secure women’s suffrage in the United States.
She was her own individual and she stand or fall by her own individual wisdom and strength.

She was a social reformer and One of the most famous suffragettes, she traveled, lectured and canvassed the nation for the vote for over sixty years while also advocating the abolition of slavery, women’s rights to their own property and earnings, and the right to organize and belong to women’s labor organizations.

On January 1, 1868, Anthony first published a weekly journal entitled The Revolution. Printed in New York City, its motto was: "The true republic — men, their rights and nothing more; women, their rights and nothing less." Anthony worked as the publisher and business manager, while Elizabeth Cady Stanton acted as editor.

In 1869, Anthony and Elizabeth Cady Stanton founded the National Women's Suffrage Association (NWSA), an organization dedicated to gaining women's suffrage. Anthony was vice-president-at-large of the NWSA from the date of its organization until 1892, when she became president.
She was the first person arrested, put on trial and fined for voting on November 5, 1872. Unable to speak in her defense she refuse to pay "a dollar of your unjust penalty."
She had between 70 to 100 speeches every year for 45 years.

She said: “The true woman will not be exponent of another, or allow another to be such for her.She will be her own individual self… Stand or fall by her own individual wisdom and strength… She will proclaim the “glad tidings of good news” to all women, that woman equally with man was made for her own individual happiness, to develop … every talent given to her by God, in the great work of life”.
Finally she said: “Woman must not depend upon the protection of man, but must be taught to protect herself”.

She was born and raised in West Grove, near Massachusetts and died in her home in Rochester, New York.
(February 15, 1820 – March 13, 1906)
Susan Anthony neither married nor had children. Susan B. Anthony died 14 years before passage of the 19th Amendment giving women the right to vote!

Freedoom for Iran......Unity is the answer.

2009-12-27T15:45:00.000-08:00

When you are one you are just one drop, when you hold two hands from a chain you are the ocean.

وقتی که به تنهایی میایستی فقط یک قطره هستی، هنگامی که دو دست را میان یک زنجیره انسانی نگه میدارید یک اقیانوس هستیدید

France/ Paris

2009-11-27T11:19:00.000-08:00

My Birthday is today...

2009-08-28T12:50:00.000-07:00

I was searching on the web to find an exciting history on my birthday ,I found out that

Rhazes, [Abu Bakr Mohammed ibn Zakarijja al-Razi] a Persian physician was born on the same day! Then I wished I was like him so scholar and helpful for people!!!

I Also found out Shania Twain was born on August 28. Then I wished to be pretty and successful like her!!!

But I was looking for something more related to my real dream.

I almost got disappointed but finally I found out that Martin Luther King was in Washington on August 28 of 1963 for his famous speech

"""" I have a dream .... من یک رویایی دارم""""

You all know what is my dream too. It is your dream too. Then for being able to see that day I will stay healthy and strong to see it.

In the name of glory for Iran and freedom for our home land country. " We have a dream & We pray for the day that we can say " We the people" in Iran.

Land of the free

2009-06-17T18:52:00.000-07:00

I don't know why from two weeks ago I was whispering Chris De Burgh " Revolution's song by myself. But now I know why...

Because of a dream " LAND OF THE FREE SWEET LIBERTY...."
Maryam

There's a quiet Revolution going on,
Like a fire in every corner of the world,
And friends that you have known for many years,
Are talking with a new light inside,
Talking with a brightness in their eyes...

Spring is here

2009-03-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

President Obama We respect you as well.

2009-03-20T12:15:00.000-07:00

It was the best Persian New Year for me in United State. I started with your positive message.

God bless you man. Every single word had thousand good message. I believe in your power and policy. Good luck and Happy Spring to you too.

This is a link for his message.

Lovely Michelle

2009-02-28T13:58:00.000-08:00

I Respect FIRST LADY MICHELLE OBAMA. She is my Role Model.

Boghosian/AP Photo.

I LOVE THIS PHOTO.

I can't belive it . I found my favorit TV series ...

2009-02-28T13:54:00.000-08:00

Photo belong to BBC Archive

Secret Army (TV series). Do you remember that?

Maryam want be 20 again. I miss myself! I want be crazy again. Is anybody know how?

2008-12-04T08:30:00.002-08:00

2008-12-03T14:12:00.000-08:00

TOO LATE MR PRESIDENT

2008-12-03T14:07:00.000-08:00

Bush says: "I Was Unprepared For War," "I'm Sorry" For The Economic Crisis"

OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA

2008-12-03T09:55:00.000-08:00

Photo from AP archive
We are hopping for change. President Elect Barack Obama, I am so happy that we are getting close to January 20th 2009.

member of a middle class family Maryam Nikkhah

Yucca Valley in OCT

2008-10-26T13:25:00.000-07:00

Surfing with Camera and catching surfers

2008-08-22T22:31:00.000-07:00

Last Night

2008-08-15T10:09:00.001-07:00

In California, NO WAY...

Kevin Costner in our town

2008-08-01T12:39:00.000-07:00

Some of the photos that I took from my last trip to Vegas ...

2008-06-21T13:16:00.000-07:00

Do you hear the people sing?

2008-06-21T11:56:00.000-07:00

If you still believe in freedom & revolutions watch part of the play Les Miserables.
I was at a local play and I enjoyed watching these play for the fifth times. I thought maybe you like it...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=lNp4tMcpM10

Fighting for Poverty ... What?

2008-05-11T23:21:00.000-07:00

John Edward is fighting poverty now. If you are interested about that read his word. I wish him the best, but in the Capitalism system which everybody is struggling to gather more money in their life just for their life how can we fight poverty? We are living in the world that some people have billions of dollars and they have just less than 100 years to live and not much time to use that 0000's. Any how Al Gore is fighting for global warming and Jon Edward is fighting for poverty now, Al Gore won Nobel last year, probably we should see Edward's name on the Nobel lists for next year.

Dancer at the Bar Mitzvah

2008-04-19T11:25:00.000-07:00

Celebration after 25 Years of marriage

2008-04-06T10:17:00.000-07:00

Look at this Lamborghini, What a world! Also if you have a minute look atThe poverty guidelines

2008-04-02T08:38:00.000-07:00

http://money.cnn.com/video/ft/#/video/fortune/2008/04/01/callaway.lamborghini.reventon.overview.fortune

http://aspe.hhs.gov/poverty/08poverty.shtml

An Angel Named Noah

2008-02-19T23:02:00.000-08:00

Tall Ships on Ventura Harbor

2008-02-12T23:19:00.000-08:00

Hello New Studio

2008-02-12T23:14:00.000-08:00

VC Productions has moved to a new studio. My new address is

3007 Bunsen Ave. Suite F Ventura, CA 93003 . If you need a map here is the link to get the map.

http://maps.yahoo.com/;_ylc=X3oDMTExNmIycG51BF9TAzI3MTYxNDkEc2VjA2ZwLWJ1dHRvbgRzbGsDbGluaw--#mvt=m&lat=34.245346&lon=-119.20963&mag=3&q1=3007%20Bunsen%20ave%20ventura%2C%20ca%2093003

Rainy days in Ventura

2008-01-26T11:22:00.001-08:00

2008-01-13T09:23:00.000-08:00

Watch 20/20 Episode about HAPPINESS. What makes us happy? Where is the happiest country? Guess... It is not America. We are on the twentieth of the list.

My Cute Dogs

2008-01-13T00:10:00.001-08:00

2008-01-06T23:12:00.001-08:00

Have you ever watched Ratatouille movie. It is one the most entertaining movie/animations. All of humane scenes of the movie just remind me Triplettes de Belleville, Les. These movies have a lot of emotional moments and lessons for adults and kids. They are showing how friends ( real Friends) can help and change somebody’s life. I remember My face was wet when I watched Triplettes . I almost cried because of the touching mementos on this movie. WOW

http://www.apple.com/trailers/disney/ratatouille/

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0286244/

2008-01-05T11:39:00.000-08:00

I was just checking my old page on the betterphoto.com & I found out that I had 3 photos awarded with editor's pick.

http://betterphoto.com/gallery/free/gallery.asp?memberID=216017

Winter is here

2007-12-31T13:34:00.000-08:00

Fillmore/ California We are experiencing a dry & cold winter.

Benazir Bhutto

2007-12-28T10:14:00.000-08:00

She fought for Democracy, but yesterday she was kiled among her people by her people. This is not a new story from Mid East & India. Do you remember Mahatma Gandhi!

She was the first ever Muslim woman to lead a Muslim country. Bhutto was educated at Harvard's Radcliffe College in the United States and at the University of Oxford in England. Bhutto was the author of "Foreign Policy in Perspective" (1978) and her autobiography, "Daughter of Destiny" (1989). She received the Bruno Kreisky Award for Human Rights in 1988 and the Honorary Phi Beta Kappa Award from Radcliffe in 1989.

She was assassinated on December 27/2007 in a combined suicide bomb attack and shooting during a political rally of the Pakistan Peoples Party in the town of Rawalpindi.

To know more about her

http://www.answers.com/topic/benazir-bhutto

http://www.benazirbhutto.co.uk/Default.php

more a bout Pakistan

http://www.state.gov/r/pa/ei/bgn/3453.htm

Look what did I find about the photographer who was there ...

http://www.cnn.com/2007/WORLD/asiapcf/12/27/bhutto.photographer/index.html

Holidays

2007-12-26T15:12:00.000-08:00

The beginning is always today.

Happy New Year.

WOW 2008

Season's Greetings

2007-12-22T08:29:00.000-08:00

Mary Mary Christmas

Happy Hanukkah

Happy Quanza

Dear Mr President

2007-12-15T12:42:00.000-08:00

I liked pink's new song. Please just take three minutes and listen to this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q56pHCGrlc4&feature=related

Congratulations

2007-12-14T21:50:00.000-08:00

Sara & Albert Congratulations. Sara is going to have a baby.

World of lights

2007-11-20T13:22:00.000-08:00

Bar Mitzvah @ Skirball Museum

Who do you want vote for?

2007-10-28T15:51:00.000-07:00

http://www.cnn.com/ELECTION/2008/
http://www.cnn.com/ELECTION/2008/candidates/

2008 elections is coming very quick. Millions of dollars will be raised and spent for this upcoming election.We have a lot of hungry people in the country but dirty politics and the race for achieving the power is stronger than everything. I wish it was possible to change the election method. Ha Ha who cares about my wishes...But who do you thing is the best candidate for the next presidential period.
Me as a woman respect Hillary and I wish she will be the next. She has a lot of knowledge about whatever she says and she has experience living very close with the former U.S. President. But for sure this 2008 election is the most exciting challenge ever in U.S. history. I think we should keep eye on it and involve ourselves more with politics.
http://topics.nytimes.com/top/reference/timestopics/people/c/hillary_rodham_clinton/index.html?inline=nyt-per

Global warming

2007-09-29T10:18:00.000-07:00

Global warming is the increase in the average temperature of the Earth's near-surface air and oceans in recent decades and its projected continuation.(Wikipedia definition)

Why 2007 must be a year for effective national action against GLOBAL WARMING. Is it too late to act? What we can do? Reading and knowing more about it will help us to help our beautiful planet.

Read this numbers about our country

Rank of 2006 as hottest year on record in the continental United States.
Rank of America as top global warming polluter in the world.
Percent increase of America's carbon dioxide emissions from the burning of fossil fuels since 1990.
Percent increase of America's carbon dioxide emissions fore casted by 2020 if we do not cap pollution.
Percent decrease in U.S. global warming pollution required by 2050 to prevent the worst consequences of global warming.
Number of days by which the US fire season has increased over the past 20 years - tied closely to increased temperatures and earlier snow melt.
Number of people around the world who could be displaced by more intense droughts, sea level rise and flooding by 2080.
Number of U.S. mayors (representing 55 million Americans) who have signed the U.S. Mayors Climate Protection Agreement pledging to meet or beat Kyoto goals in their communities.
Number of federal bills passed to cap America's global warming pollution.
Number of times President Bush has mentioned "climate change" or "global warming" in his previous six State of the Union speeches.

Interesting is isn't?

Scientists say global warming means a mix of more frequent and intense storms, wildfires and heat waves. Also scientists founded Environmental Defense 40 years ago but ....

Lets start from our own home and backyard.

http://www.fightglobalwarming.com/page.cfm?tagID=135

Take it serious.

http://www.environmentaldefense.org/page.cfm?tagID=65

Find out more here ...

http://topics.nytimes.com/top/news/science/topics/globalwarming/index.html?inline=nyt-classifier#

2007-08-27T18:19:00.000-07:00

Sara at Malibu, Calamigos Ranch.

Norma & Jesse

2007-08-15T14:48:00.000-07:00

What a wonderfull wedding, full of energy and alot of dances.

Katie & Jose

2007-08-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

Ceremony took less than 10 minutes, WOW it was the shortest ceremony ever... Congratulations on your wedding Katie and Jose

To early to be flower girl

2007-08-10T13:16:00.000-07:00

2007-08-01T11:47:00.000-07:00

Courtny & Jasson.

Jasson welcome back to America We are happy that you came back safe from Persian Golf.

2007-07-25T16:35:00.000-07:00

My backyard flower

Hi Dear Friend

2007-07-20T12:41:00.000-07:00

This is Maryam Nikkhah's blog. Hello new day. This is my first weblog and these words are my first steps toward writing on the web.Good Luck Maryam

In the name of beauty.

My old published

2007-06-20T09:46:00.000-07:00

I am trying to find all of my published articles. This is the first step, because it was easy to find. I have to scan all of my newspapers and Magazine's articles, who has time for it! I will do it later.

About Country Music
http://media.www.venturacollegepress.com/media/storage/paper416/news/2003/10/13/Focus/Country.Music-528120.shtml

About "Scarface" on DVD
http://media.www.venturacollegepress.com/media/storage/paper416/news/2003/12/08/AE/my.Little.Friend.On.Dvd-576707.shtml

Human rights comes to forefront as Nobel Peace Prize goes to Persian
http://media.www.venturacollegepress.com/media/storage/paper416/news/2003/11/17/Opinion/Human.Rights.Comes.To.Forefront.As.Nobel.Peace.Prize.Goes.To.Persian-558766.shtml

Roses are red, violets are blue; plants fight fires and so should you
http://media.www.venturacollegepress.com/media/storage/paper416/news/2003/12/08/Focus/Roses.Are.Red.Violets.Are.Blue.Plants.Fight.Fires.And.So.Should.You-573778.shtml

International students find U.S. schools differ in more than just language
http://media.www.venturacollegepress.com/media/storage/paper416/news/2003/11/17/Focus/International.Students.Find.U.s.Schools.Differ.In.More.Than.Just.Language-558807.shtml

GIS Day: Ventura College awarded grant
http://media.www.venturacollegepress.com/media/storage/paper416/news/2003/12/08/Focus/Gis-Day.Ventura.College.Awarded.Grant-573776.shtml

Former Trusty
http://www.venturacollegepress.com/media/paper416/news/2003/11/17/News/Former.Trustee.Dies.At.73-558776.shtml

Maryam Nikkhah

God

Nothing is the same as before

What is the best time of the day

Life is like a zumba class

Bones and roots.

Andy Williams - The Impossible Dream

Fog and morning

I learned when it was so late.

scream of fire.

Time Machine

MOON

you and me

I wanna show you u.

I don't even know who I am I

A poem

A poem

help me please.

some people

چه اتفاقاتی میتوانست بیافتد تا من تولد سی و نه سالگیم را نبینم

Blue blood

کلید lock

قفلی که کلیدش گم شده باید دور انداخت Threw away the lock which doesn't have the key

Annabel Lee

Annabel Lee

غّر نامه ..... دستگاه آدم شناسی

Confession اعتراف

Photographers and writers

Agri world in a hot day.

life is too short for some.

Rest In Peace Nicholas Joel Haverland

life is like an apple that falls from tree.

Are women equal with men? Are women equal with men? Are men equal with women or men are more equal? آیا زنان برابر با مردان هستند؟

memory

سکوت صبح را دوست دارم

NEW YORK

Fall پاییز

باز باران با ترانه

Maneuver مانور

swindle فریب

Don't...

Do we believe to whatever we say and write to others?

Did Popular Preacher Murder His Wife?

Amazing life of hummingbirds.

Simin Behbahani

For Women's Day روز جهانی زن

LENI RIEFENSTAHL

Susan Brownell Anthony

Freedoom for Iran......Unity is the answer.

France/ Paris

My Birthday is today...

Land of the free

Spring is here

President Obama We respect you as well.

Lovely Michelle

I can't belive it . I found my favorit TV series ...

Secret Army (TV series). Do you remember that?

Maryam want be 20 again. I miss myself! I want be crazy again. Is anybody know how?

TOO LATE MR PRESIDENT

OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA

Yucca Valley in OCT

Surfing with Camera and catching surfers

Last Night

Kevin Costner in our town

Some of the photos that I took from my last trip to Vegas ...

Do you hear the people sing?

Fighting for Poverty ... What?

Dancer at the Bar Mitzvah

Celebration after 25 Years of marriage

Look at this Lamborghini, What a world! Also if you have a minute look atThe poverty guidelines

An Angel Named Noah

Tall Ships on Ventura Harbor

Hello New Studio

Rainy days in Ventura

My Cute Dogs

Winter is here

Benazir Bhutto

Holidays

Season's Greetings

Dear Mr President

قفلی که کلیدش گم شده باید دور انداخت

Threw away the lock which doesn't have the key